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Got my freaking certification today

Photo 19-04-16 19 24 39Got my certification today in first aid, so another step towards Australia is completed and no matter what it’s important to keep up to date. Beside that first aid really is different down here.

As normal my brain flat lined and I freaked out but somehow I managed to keep my head so cold that I got through it.

I’ve always been bad of to exams and job interviews. In the old days I had diarrhea before, was white in the face, had problems keeping my head clear and was close to fainting etc. Compared to that I’m much better of now but still my body just shut down after meaning that I went home and slept a while. I woke up because of the telly and made some food which I’ve eaten very little of because I’m exhausted.

Even though I’m so bad of with exams and job interview I still do it – You just have to take the bull by the horns and do it. I took the certification and I know that I’ll go much better in real life.

Today I did it

I gathered enough courage to go to the local swimming pool and it might sound crazy to you but for me it was such a huge deal that I’m so over the moon.

It’s about 11 years ago that I’ve been in a local swimming pool after that I’ve only been swimming in the ocean and fjords in the summer and the last 4 years only in the company of others with close relationship. The reason is that after a flue went into my nerve system in april 2011 my dyspraxia (motoric control disorder) in the legs has increased. While I can jump, run, dance etc. like every body else, then my legs are having problems adjusting to walking on the ground and carry my full weight, when I’ve been weightless in water or standing on a S.U.P. board or running on a treadmill . It’s so embarrassing and annoying so therefore I’ve avoided being alone in these situations. On good days it’s like walking on legs that are sleeping but on bad days I hardly can control my legs.

I love swimming in the ocean so when I went to Bondi I knew that I had to just do it.  My big concern was how people would react because people can’t see that I’ve dyspraxia and yes the lifeguards on Bondi shouted at me one of the first days I was going to shore after taking a bath. I couldn’t hear what they were saying with their megaphone because of the waves but the way my legs gave in under me they probably though I was 1) drunk or 2) that the rip was giving me problems.

When I surfed/SUPed I had an instructor who supported me and knew what was going on so I felt safe and protected. At the same time my instructor wasn’t just a random instructor because I know I need PT’s and instructors that are patient, bossy and an empathic/caring side.

So you see going to the local swimming pool alone is a huge challenge for me. But I did it today and it was a success. My technique was so good that I had to switch to the lane reserved for fast swimmers. I managed 300 m in good pace, so I’m so happy.

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