The ride of my life has started and I’m so relieved :). I started Friday on my new life and first stop was Copenhagen. I was lucky to meet up with an amazing danish lady Ulla from my fitness center in the airport so time went fast. In Copenhagen I’m visiting my bonus father Knud and as always we’re having a really good time 🙂
Saturday we went shopping and I’d forgotten how amazing it is to shop in a place where there is lots of organic fruit and vegetables. I’m in heaven and loving it 🙂
Later we went to Gladsaxe Hallen and saw The Danish Championship in in-door rowing where Knud’s granddaughter won her class. Normally I’m a sports ignorant but I like watching when somebody I know is participating and on top Astrid did an amazing job. I got so inspired but I know rowing is out of my reach because of my back but I’m so going to get strong and start participating in military/obstacle races 🙂
Today – Monday – I had invited Knud on a very old restaurant called “Det Lille Apotek” (The small pharmacy) for a early celebration of his upcoming birthday. As a bonus I could check of a point on my 101 things to do when you survive list. The place is quiet famous in Copenhagen because of the amazing service and traditional danish food. We got a fish dish called “stjerneskud” (shooting star). It’s a steamed and a butter fried flounder filet served with asparagus, scrimps, caviar, slices of lemon and dill. We’re still full 😀
The weather is typical grey danish winter so it rains and is windy but we take a walk every day and beside that I get a lot of needed rest and sleep. Beside that I’ve prepared my luggage for my trip so all is ready for my adventure 🙂
Something weird has happened – I woke up after a really bad night and weird enough I’ve a peace in me that I haven’t had in many years. It’s so lovely and I really hope it’s there to stay.
I’ve had 1,5 week at home after the toxic reaction and my dyspraxia has freaked out because of it in a way I don’t think ever has happened before. Fortunately there’s normally years between getting a toxic reaction and this time it some medication (lucky me I usually don’t use any medication). But right now I can’t hide my dyspraxia because it’s the motor part and somehow I don’t care any more. It’s who I’m and if people can’t love me or just like me for it, there is nothing I can do about it. It’ll come out and people will see it so shit happens and as a mate back from school send me a quote on – Wabi Sabi – I’m just finding the beauty in my imperfection and accepting the natural cycle 😉
I know I’ve amazing people walking beside me like my PT, my surf trainer, “The 101 things to do when you survive”-gang some of my colleagues and friends around the world (and yes I don’t have friends like that here but I’ve friends who are only a phone call or a text away).
So with a little help from some of my dear friends the last days, I’m starting a new chapter of my life which we call Bumblebee girl on mission possible. Mission possible is somehow being allowed to immigrate to Australia.
It will take time because instead of pushing it all, I’ll start working with the flow taking on decision at a time and take one step. Then see where I’m and then take a decision from that perspective. I shouldn’t be surprised if this process actually works faster 😀
I’ve been so desperate to emigrate away from the cold and Norway that it became a fight but it’s should be a positive walk towards making my dreams come though 🙂
Now I’ll wash my face (cried writing this) and then I’ll take a walk because the more I move the faster my body becomes my friend again 🙂
Published on facebook 25-09-15
I woke up today (my day off work to study day) and my head was buzzing. Since sunday night I’ve been totally out of sync and I needed grounding, clarity and focus or I will not make it. Therefore, after a good chat with a friend of mine, I sat down and began to write. Instead of just scribbling on a piece of paper that goes on the wall or in a drawer I have chosen to make a page here on my site to hopefully inspire somebody with it. If I can help just one person to keep following his or her dream or to start following a dream it’s all worth it 🙂
It all started long ago but I’ll start last friday. I was so mentally and physically exhausted that I was ready to give up everything. Fortunately I had a session with my PT and I went because I know that when I feel the most reluctant it’s the most important day to go. My PT knows that I’ve done kick-boxing earlier in life and he is good at reading me so when I had nothing left in me he gave me boxing gloves on. Man … my PT know how to get me to fight to the last blood drop kicking and beating.
When I get the gloves on I go into another world – like being 100% in the present and only one focus. Like a meditation where the mind shuts every thing out. The only thing I got was a picture of me on the SUP board on #BondiBeach and that kept me going.
All weekend my body was so sore and then one more session monday. I told my PT I was sore and he did just like the kick-boxing trainers I have had – he made me work even harder all the way to physically exhaustion. After the session I sat in the sauna stretching, relaxing and my brain flat lined but he had started a process he made me fight instead of surrendering. Therefore I’m so ready for the next round.
So here is my dream and my blueprint