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New routines – think smart

In the 45 days I stayed at the temple I got a new routines like meditation, yoga, supplements, diet , walking a lot and low-stress lifestyle, which I really need to keep going.

It’s so easy to implement new habits and routines, while living in a protected world like the temple, where everything is based on having these healthy habits. Sticking to them outside in the real world is a challenge.

Practically  it’s challenging since I’ve got a steady place to live yet here in Sydney. Therefore every day is filled with a massive amount of new impressions, new people and using a lot of the time on the process of getting settled. Keeping up the new routines will be a lot easier when I get a steady place, where I’ve my stuff around me and easy to access. Until then I just have to do the best I can.

The easiest thing to do is the supplements and the food (here in Bondi there are healthy food stores all over the place). The yoga has become the greatest challenge since I need space and peaceful surroundings, but now I’ve a mat so on dry days I can go to the roof of the hostel or the beach to practice. The meditation has been a challenge, but this morning I went for a walk in the rain and put on my theta wave music – that worked wonders – just like using it in the evening just before bed time.

When I get my “own” space (probably a shared flat or a room) – my morning routine takes about 1 hour beside breakfast and personal stuff. Yes I’ll have to get up early in general, but that is not a problem for me.  I need access to a good kitchen, refrigerator, live close to organic stores, hot water washer, not waste too much time on transportation and be able to get early to bed (quiet place). I really hope to live in walking distance to the school maybe 15-20 minutes so I’ve some walking Incorporated in my day. Why do it the hard way if you can do it the smart way ;).

I don’t know about you guys but it’s possible, but it takes effort and smart thinking. Getting as much as possible incorperated in the daily routine so it also frees time to the fun stuff 🙂

I know I’ve to do this because the benefits make a huge difference in my life and I might actually get a life free of any symptoms from my dyspraxia. Again it’s about smart thinking and long term thinking in this case long term isn’t that long since I already experiences a huge difference from before I stayed at the temple. 🙂

Later on I can add more like trigger point and starting studying in the evening beside work but first I’ve to make the foundation for my new life work. It’s like building a house. If the foundation is solid and good the house will last and will be easy to maintain 🙂

 

Let me present: Pierre Black

IMG_6690This unique fellow (the guy in the picture with the hat) has in just a few weeks made a major impact on my life.

I’d now idea about who Pierre Black was before I arrived at the Zen Retreat at the temple near Kozaki. Pierre is a naturapath specialised in diet, CST (cranial sacral therapy) and energy work. This guy is interested in the scientific researched angle. Nutrition wise he uses a mix of ayurvetic and Chinese medicin combined with genetics so he makes a diet that is realistic to follow and which takes you native habits in consideration.
He has a very direct approach which I appreciate because beating around the bushes doesn’t change things.

For the first time my reactions to food has become logic and it has been such a relief. A lot of the problems I’ve, which danish doctors have denied exist or just made mental is now connected to problems with my immune system and digestion and by eating the right diet and supplements it’s already changing.

Beside that for the first time I’ve been taught how to train my body after my body constitution and it makes so much sense and it’s a huge relief to hearing a person telling me what I’ve sensed on many areas but was told was just because I had to get into the habit and ignore the signal.

The first he did was making some adjustments to my diet and putting me on two supplements which strengthens the immune system and digestion.

Then he helped me get more grounded. The life I’ve had since 2011 has been one big crock pot of stressful experiences so when I arrived to the temple I was exhausted and I had a hard time relaxing and getting a good night sleep. I started using theta-wave music and experimenting with different kinds of meditation. Until a racoon took our pet duck, I had the responsibility for taking care of the duck both according to take time petting her and feeding her and that was major quality time for me.

A bit into my stay Pierre also started speeding up the healing of my nerve lanes in the body (got damaged after a flue in 2011) with CST and DIY ayurvetic oil massage with an oil blend added frankincense and st. johns wort. I got so surprised because when he practice his cranio sakral therapy og energy work this huge man gets so gentle and kind that I felt safe putting my head in his hand and I don’t trust easy.

In the “few” weeks I was on the temple it made a huge difference f.ex. I’ve no more heat flashes going on, I feel more grounded. Beside that I know a lot now and I can handle a lot on my own before I need help and that is so amazing. Pierre has given me new hope that I can get a really good life.

I can highly recommend Pierre Black as a practitioner.

Since I lived at the temple for 45 days I also got to know Pierre in private and as a person I’ve experienced him as direct but also very kind, caring and ready to help people. While I was at the temple I’d a rock to lean on and that was a huge gift to just being able to let go of the usual life for 45 days and being able to concentrate on getting the foundation for my life started in a good way.

Thank you for all your help.

Day 2-3 – in Hiroshima – What do you focus on?

I love Hiroshima and I’ll return since I’m leaving today and I haven’t seen half of what this area has to offer.

Before I went to Hiroshima I met several people telling me, that the 2 days I chose to stay in Hiroshima was more than enough, because Hiroshima is a sad place to be. Why? – because of the many reminders of bombing back in the second world war. Of course, I saw the peace park and the places under rebuilding, but I get inspired by it since people here are living their lives and rebuilding the city. Even the castle is being rebuild so I see a city that is raising itself from the dust with pride and what could be more inspiring? I haven’t met one Japanese talking about the bombing or treated anybody I’ve seen with disrespect, hate or like. This is something a lot of other nationalities could learn from. I haven’t met anybody taking on the victim role instead I see the mentality of a people standing together.

It’s all about how you choose to see life and things. Do you hang on to the past or do you focus on the present and future? Do you stand together in dark times or do you sit down and chose to become the victim? It’s all about choice. We might not be able to change the circumstances but we’ve the choice of how to react. Yes admitted sometimes it takes a little time and even a friendly kick to turn a situation around to a positive perspective but it can be done and it makes life so much easier.

Today I’m leaving for Tokyo and I’m so excited even though I could have used 3-4 days more here.

The food here is amazing and even with my challenges I’ve been eating well every day.

The hostel K’s house is recommendable for everything – it’s really a good place to stay.

If you’ve a Japan Rail pass you can ride for free in the loop sightseeing buses.

So see you again Hiroshima

Today my adventure begins

Yesterday I got a good lesson from my body – called listen to yourself.

I started this road trip to honour my parents and to get to know my father better but it seems like this also becomes the road trip where I get to know me better 😉

When I’ve a goal I usually follow it up and work hard but this is not about the goal, it’s about the trip and enjoying myself. I must admit that is a new thing for me in this way so I’m learning valuable lessons.

On my first day I drove the whole day and I was tired when I arrived but that was planned. Therefore the second day I went to Niagara Falls and just took it easy (it’s about 30 minutes from Buffalo where I stayed). Then my plan was to go to Oklahoma city in long “6 hours ride a day” stretches on the interstate because after that my fathers trip really takes off.

Yesterday I just realised that since my cold allergy is of I’ve to take care of myself (the plane ride was freezing and New York wasn’t better). My father took this trip in his way and on his circumstances and I’m not him. I just wanted to make this trip precisely as his but this morning in the bath I began to think what my parents would have wanted … They both would have wanted me to have a trip I enjoy and where I do what is right for me and take care of myself and my needs. Therefore today I’ll go and take highway 40 instead of the interstate and take a “slower” ride on my terms. Even though I made stops on every rest area yesterday driving on the interstate is tiring. That’s why I’m start my own adventure today instead of hunting a shadow – I’ll duplicate my fathers trip and make it my own.

Reflection from a time-out

at last on the ghan

Traveling alone is amazing but it has also given me a huge gift of time to think and that is both good and bad 😉 I’ve time to reflect over the life I’m putting behind me and the future. What did I do right and what areas I can approve in. What do I want to focus on in life short term and long term etc.

Beside that traveling alone makes it a lot easier to get in contact with locals and other tourists traveling alone therefore I’ve got some really amazing experiences.

When I arrived in Sydney the 9th of March I was mentally tired from the last 5 years but kept focusing on what I want, though I didn’t have the energy to go into 100% boot camp. I then got a maui massage that changed a lot for me because since that I’ve had no nerve tics from the dyspraxia and I’ve a good sleep every night now except two nights which is a major improvement. Therefore I’ve used a lot of time sleeping and recovering with good food and training. The trip to Great Barrier Reef was epic but physically challenging in the good way so I’ve used the last week on recovering.

Yesterday morning I woke up and something felt different. I chose run right away and I met 2 of my favorite lifeguards who saw me last year and had a chat – and one of them commented on how good I’m looking now and that made me realise I’m on the right track. Combined with listening to Mateuzs’ motivational speeches I felt like a fog lifted and I got several piece in my life puzzle to fall into place.

It’s like I’ve taken a leap of faith and my life puzzle has been taken apart and I need to put it all together in a new way. Just to be clear I love the process 😃 and I began to think about life and survival. It’s all about strength but not “how hard you can hit” –  it’s more “how hard a blow you can take” and get up again.

People that know me IRL have heard my mantras like:

  • I’m not finished when I’m tired, I’m finished when I’m done
  • You always have a choice
  • When life serves you lemon make lemonade and when they get too big move away from the power plant.
  • You might not be able to change the circumstances but you can choose how to react
  • If you hate Monday you’re in the wrong job
  • What you send out you get back (law of attraction)
  • It’s not about how you fall or how many times you fall – it’s about how you get up again
  • It’s better to take a chance than regretting not taking the chance
  • It’s never to late

This is my attitude 99% of the time and some days I believe that what brought me to this attitude beside kick-boxing is being borned with motor sensoric dyspraxia and a good portion of determination.

Through my life I’ve met so many people that already in early age has surrendered and given up on life and is just fighting to survive the day. They hate Monday and have count downs to the next weekend because they’ve a job they hate or just not thrive in. They are so focused on all that can go wrong and choosing to let fear control their life and using a lot of excuses for why not making the changes that is needed to turn life around. Often they’ve never told anybody about it just assumed that nobody wants to listen or help.

I know it’s hard because the last five years my life has been really hard and it has been like driving a car on a really dark road where I only could see what the light from the car made visible. So I just had to move forward in hope that I would get out of the darkness again. Now I’m getting my reward for moving forward every day step by step and have a time where I do stuff from my 101 things to do when you survive – I’m out in the daylight again and loving it.

In the end guys it’s all about your attitude and you’re the only one who can change your own lives and change comes from doing things different or do it a new way.

Jumping of the cliff

Today is the big day – I’m leaving the well known and heading for London. OK – London I know but it’s the first big step in the direction of “OZ”. I’m so ready for my adventure, a warmer climate and most of all smiling and open people. Already now I’m in heaven because people in Denmark are more smiling than norwegians 🙂

Right now I’m sitting in the Airport of Copenhagen (transfer) and waiting on my airplane listening to old danish music. I love the music back from the 50-60’es+80-90’es because it’s happy music (note to ‘self: don’t sing loudly in the airport). Usually when I’m alone in my PJ, cooking this is what I sometimes listen to while singing loudly and dancing around.

I’ve had some amazing days with respectively my bonus father in Copenhagen and my friend Gunhild in the outback of Denmark. When I say outback I mean where pigs ain’t wearing a license plate, the closest neighbour is a couple of cows and the birds has turned around :-D. By the way I can’t hide I’m a red neck because I love it 😉

I had so much luck that I manage to catch up with 3 other friends too – Thank you so much, so wonderful with some girl-power again :-D.

According to my health, I already are experiencing major progress. The weather is better here in Denmark and Gunhild gave me two zone therapy treatments to help my body cleans after the massive adrenal hormone treatment the last weeks in Norway. Beside that massive amounts of good food and rest work wonders too.

One last thing – when I catch a flight I always buy chocolate to the crew – you should try it and see the smiles you get back. It’s addictive and all worth it – just remember to buy a sealed bag with pieces of chocolates packed separately.

Take care guys and live life 🙂

New Year resolutions

Every year I hear people talk about their New Year resolutions like starting getting fit, eating better, stop shipping, stop smoking etc. and how long does it last if people get started? 😀 you get the picture. I believe we all done this 🙂

What happens with the New Year resolutions?

In the past when happened to me it was because  I wasn’t committed. – I was choosing my New Year resolutions based on should, ought to etc. I hear many resolutions based on  “what other people think of me” you know in all do what is right in the eyes of others.
What I’ve learned over the years is that if I really mean it I’ve to start at once if possible. The if possible is like when I wanted to start with a PT, I had to wait until he had an opening. Yesterday I started at a personal development book – why wait if you really mean it.

A goal or a motivation

Put your heart in it and do it without postponing and more important do it for you and nobody else. Actually give a sh.t about what other people think. This is about you and nobody else. What do you want? Don’t stop smoking if you don’t feel like it and make yourself and everybody else around miserable.
Again it has to be about you and you’ve to find your motivation – not just your goal. Like when I started with an PT I knew I wanted to be stronger! – I could have stopped there, but I carried on with the why – Why working on getting stronger? why endure the pain and soreness? – Because I want to surf and be good at it. I want to feel the waves and ride one standing up more than 1 sec. – I want to “fly“.
Beside that I want to SUP without feeling and looking like Bambi on the ice, and being rewarded with that magical feeling of peace and success of doing something I’m not supposed to be able to.
For me being on the water cleanses my mind and gives me the best meditation.
Another reason for getting fit is that I want to participate in obstacle courses (competitions) not to win but to complete it. This will be a major victory for me because I’m again doing something fun and something I’m not supposed to be able to. As a bonus  I’ll have a strong body which will give me freedom because I can do what I want and my body supports me in stead of being my straight jacket. – You see this is not just a goal for me any more – it’s a motive connected to a feeling and that makes me wanna fight for it.

How do I keep the spirit up?

So if you’re making New Year resolutions take the extra step and find out the motive and feeling behind and write it down or take pictures to remind yourself. I’ve pictures and a couple of movie clips of me on the board and every time I’m thinking of giving up or it’s to hard or disillusioned I just look at the pictures/movie clips. I’ve even contacted the management of one of the hardest obstacle courses in the world and they sent me their poster to my vision board. Beside that when I’m having a hard day at the fitness center I just visualize myself on the board or think about doing the obstacle course to get renewed my energy.
Good luck and a happy new 2016 🙂

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