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Reflection from a time-out

at last on the ghan

Traveling alone is amazing but it has also given me a huge gift of time to think and that is both good and bad 😉 I’ve time to reflect over the life I’m putting behind me and the future. What did I do right and what areas I can approve in. What do I want to focus on in life short term and long term etc.

Beside that traveling alone makes it a lot easier to get in contact with locals and other tourists traveling alone therefore I’ve got some really amazing experiences.

When I arrived in Sydney the 9th of March I was mentally tired from the last 5 years but kept focusing on what I want, though I didn’t have the energy to go into 100% boot camp. I then got a maui massage that changed a lot for me because since that I’ve had no nerve tics from the dyspraxia and I’ve a good sleep every night now except two nights which is a major improvement. Therefore I’ve used a lot of time sleeping and recovering with good food and training. The trip to Great Barrier Reef was epic but physically challenging in the good way so I’ve used the last week on recovering.

Yesterday morning I woke up and something felt different. I chose run right away and I met 2 of my favorite lifeguards who saw me last year and had a chat – and one of them commented on how good I’m looking now and that made me realise I’m on the right track. Combined with listening to Mateuzs’ motivational speeches I felt like a fog lifted and I got several piece in my life puzzle to fall into place.

It’s like I’ve taken a leap of faith and my life puzzle has been taken apart and I need to put it all together in a new way. Just to be clear I love the process 😃 and I began to think about life and survival. It’s all about strength but not “how hard you can hit” –  it’s more “how hard a blow you can take” and get up again.

People that know me IRL have heard my mantras like:

  • I’m not finished when I’m tired, I’m finished when I’m done
  • You always have a choice
  • When life serves you lemon make lemonade and when they get too big move away from the power plant.
  • You might not be able to change the circumstances but you can choose how to react
  • If you hate Monday you’re in the wrong job
  • What you send out you get back (law of attraction)
  • It’s not about how you fall or how many times you fall – it’s about how you get up again
  • It’s better to take a chance than regretting not taking the chance
  • It’s never to late

This is my attitude 99% of the time and some days I believe that what brought me to this attitude beside kick-boxing is being borned with motor sensoric dyspraxia and a good portion of determination.

Through my life I’ve met so many people that already in early age has surrendered and given up on life and is just fighting to survive the day. They hate Monday and have count downs to the next weekend because they’ve a job they hate or just not thrive in. They are so focused on all that can go wrong and choosing to let fear control their life and using a lot of excuses for why not making the changes that is needed to turn life around. Often they’ve never told anybody about it just assumed that nobody wants to listen or help.

I know it’s hard because the last five years my life has been really hard and it has been like driving a car on a really dark road where I only could see what the light from the car made visible. So I just had to move forward in hope that I would get out of the darkness again. Now I’m getting my reward for moving forward every day step by step and have a time where I do stuff from my 101 things to do when you survive – I’m out in the daylight again and loving it.

In the end guys it’s all about your attitude and you’re the only one who can change your own lives and change comes from doing things different or do it a new way.

“Stepped over the line” – Day one in a new life

I need to get in sFeatured imagehape and regain full control over my body so I’m not a prisoner in my own body. Therefore I’ve made an exercise regime to get me there.

Today I started on a 12 weeks running-program for beginners because the 22nd of August I’m participating in ColorMeRad five km run. Some have asked me why I chose ColorMeRad – Easy answer – it’s so crazy and I get a multicoloured body afterwards. For me that is a very good reward ;-D

Today I had to speed walk and I did my shopping on the way so I got a light weight down hill walk and a heavy climb up again to the house. It was a 3,4 km walk on a cold but lovely day. Apparently I chose a good time to walk because it’s raining now.

Normally I find running boring but my little friend was out today and she asked me if I could pronounce her cat’s name “tiger”. When I could do that I got thumps up and could carry on with my speed walking. 😀  Beside that I’m going to make it one of my ways of meditating. Already today I could feel how much happier I felt after the walk. The program is build in a way so I’ve to use 3 days a week to reach my goal.

Beside that I’ve my weekly PT-lesson where I’m having major progress now because my PT is good at pressuring me to the point where my body gets out of control and that is very important according to the dyspraxia. It helps me getting better body control fast.

To get better coordination I dance swing ones a week.

If one of these things isn’t possible I go swimming.

Once a month I have a session at the rehab center in the hot water pool with watsu (water therapy) to get my body stretched and relaxed. At home I use a waff and triggerpoint roller to stretch and gain more mobility especially my hip.

I know this is a huge program so diet and mentality needs a push but I’ve asked for help and now I hope to get a positive answer. Beside that on facebook I’ve asked for others who are interested in an online sparring-partner for mutual support in reaching our respective goals so if you are interested let me know or if you are interested in coaching me let me know 🙂

I have a dream and I’m going for it

I woke up today (my day off work to study day) and my head was buzzing. Since sunday night I’ve been totally out of sync and I needed grounding, clarity and focus or I will not make it. Therefore, after a good chat with a friend of mine, I sat down and began to write. Instead of just scribbling on a piece of paper that goes on the wall or in a drawer I have chosen to make a page here on my site to hopefully inspire somebody with it. If I can help just one person to keep following his or her dream or to start following a dream it’s all worth it 🙂

It all started long ago but I’ll start last friday. I was so mentally and physically exhausted that I was ready to give up everything. Fortunately I had a session with my PT and I went because I know that when I feel the most reluctant it’s the most important day to go. My PT knows that I’ve done kick-boxing earlier in life and he is good at reading me so when I had nothing left in me he gave me boxing gloves on. Man … my PT know how to get me to fight to the last blood drop kicking and beating.

When I get the gloves on I go into another world – like being 100% in the present and only one focus. Like a meditation where the mind shuts every thing out. The only thing I got was a picture of me on the SUP board on ‪#‎BondiBeach‬ and that kept me going.

All weekend my body was so sore and then one more session monday. I told my PT I was sore and he did just like the kick-boxing trainers I have had – he made me work even harder all the way to physically exhaustion. After the session I sat in the sauna stretching, relaxing and my brain flat lined but he had started a process he made me fight instead of surrendering. Therefore I’m so ready for the next round.

So here is my dream and my blueprint

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