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Home is where the heart is

I’m back and I felt so at home already in the airport of Sydney.

I’d chosen to take a night flight because it was cheap but even though I’d three seats to my disposal I got very little sleep. Therefore I’ve used two days to try and get into sync again 😀 but I’m here and I’ll stay now for 5-6 months and this is so wonderful.

The first day I went for a walk to Bondi Beach to get some food and I was recognized by the store owner from Bitebox. That felt amazing to get waved at, get a good talk and get a box with meat and vegetables. Then I went to the neighbour shop my favorite and got a fresh made melon juice. After that I went right down to the beach and just sat there and ate.

Guys I’m home 😀 it’s funny how many people say that their place/house/four walls are their home. For me it’s where my heart is and Bondi is where my heart is and no matter where I’ll end up living Bondi is my home and I’m a Bondi girl 🙂

And to make it even more adventurous while I was eating all hell broke loose for the lifeguards and they had to save two teenagers in very bad shape and they did as usual an amazing job. Most of it I know from the news because I’ll never join the ring of death unless it’s somebody I know getting saved.

In these days I stay at a hostel close to the beach so when I go to the roof top I get an amazing view over the ocean.  One of these days when the weather is good I’ll go up there and do some whale watching.

I’m using my days on getting settled and getting ready for school which starts Monday at 9 am. Therefore I’ve been shopping a little – looking at places to stay – looking at job agencies – making my CV – you know all the boring stuff 😀

Tonight I’ll reward myself and get food from my favorite restaurant and the best thing is it’s big portions of quality food for cheap money.

 

 

 

Let me present: Pierre Black

IMG_6690This unique fellow (the guy in the picture with the hat) has in just a few weeks made a major impact on my life.

I’d now idea about who Pierre Black was before I arrived at the Zen Retreat at the temple near Kozaki. Pierre is a naturapath specialised in diet, CST (cranial sacral therapy) and energy work. This guy is interested in the scientific researched angle. Nutrition wise he uses a mix of ayurvetic and Chinese medicin combined with genetics so he makes a diet that is realistic to follow and which takes you native habits in consideration.
He has a very direct approach which I appreciate because beating around the bushes doesn’t change things.

For the first time my reactions to food has become logic and it has been such a relief. A lot of the problems I’ve, which danish doctors have denied exist or just made mental is now connected to problems with my immune system and digestion and by eating the right diet and supplements it’s already changing.

Beside that for the first time I’ve been taught how to train my body after my body constitution and it makes so much sense and it’s a huge relief to hearing a person telling me what I’ve sensed on many areas but was told was just because I had to get into the habit and ignore the signal.

The first he did was making some adjustments to my diet and putting me on two supplements which strengthens the immune system and digestion.

Then he helped me get more grounded. The life I’ve had since 2011 has been one big crock pot of stressful experiences so when I arrived to the temple I was exhausted and I had a hard time relaxing and getting a good night sleep. I started using theta-wave music and experimenting with different kinds of meditation. Until a racoon took our pet duck, I had the responsibility for taking care of the duck both according to take time petting her and feeding her and that was major quality time for me.

A bit into my stay Pierre also started speeding up the healing of my nerve lanes in the body (got damaged after a flue in 2011) with CST and DIY ayurvetic oil massage with an oil blend added frankincense and st. johns wort. I got so surprised because when he practice his cranio sakral therapy og energy work this huge man gets so gentle and kind that I felt safe putting my head in his hand and I don’t trust easy.

In the “few” weeks I was on the temple it made a huge difference f.ex. I’ve no more heat flashes going on, I feel more grounded. Beside that I know a lot now and I can handle a lot on my own before I need help and that is so amazing. Pierre has given me new hope that I can get a really good life.

I can highly recommend Pierre Black as a practitioner.

Since I lived at the temple for 45 days I also got to know Pierre in private and as a person I’ve experienced him as direct but also very kind, caring and ready to help people. While I was at the temple I’d a rock to lean on and that was a huge gift to just being able to let go of the usual life for 45 days and being able to concentrate on getting the foundation for my life started in a good way.

Thank you for all your help.

I have become a squatter :-D

This is one of the best thing that have happened to me in Japan – becoming a squatter and I love it.

When I arrived I saw old people around 80’s squatting and my eyes were close to popping out of my head. The western lifestyle makes us disabled without us knowing it and we are given that lifestyle from we’re babies.

I’ve now become much better at it but in the beginning even though I was rather flexible compared to other European I had my challenges. Guys this is serious for your health so please carry on reading.

Yes I’ve become a squatter both because of the health issue but also because of the comfort in it … and no I haven’t cracked  a vein in my brain ;-D I won’t lie it was hard in the beginning but I’ve gotten used to squatting while staying here in Japan both going on the toilet, taking my bath etc. even sitting with the leg crossed.

Squatting is better for the body and has many benefits like:

  • you stay flexible and if you can’t do it now get started. When I started I had to hold on to the water pipe to keep my balance. I look ridiculous and sometimes I wondered if there were hidden cameras.
  • it’s easier to empty the bladder and the gut while squatting because it give a natural position to do that, instead of cloaking it all and then have to pressure to get it out. This cloaking up  also helps you to get more problems when you get older.
  • your legs doesn’t fall asleep while sitting on the toilet (mine does)
  • your rear end is easier to clean after a #2
  • nobody uses the bathroom for 30 minutes before getting in scape ;-D

I actually miss having access to a squatting toilet now because here in Tokyo everything is so westernized compared to Oita.

Again if you can’t it’s not to late to start squatting 😉 and don’t give me the I’m to old or I’m to stiff – all excuses – just start doing what you can and you’ll get there. When I can do it, you can do it 🙂

Living at a temple

This has been an amazing and life changing experience, which I haven’t been close to another place.

This Zen retreat is one of the few, where foreigners are accepted and allows long-term stay. You also become a part of the place and are expected to participate actively in the temple life.

Our basic daily schedule looked like this:
My alarm went of at 5:00 – yes together with the chickens 😉
5:30 the monk start chanting and this half our is the best time of the day for me.
6:00 Meditation
7:00 Tea time and private time (bath time etc.)
8:00 Yoga
9:00 Work started (all from domestic work, preparing rooms for new arrivals, chopping wood, weeding, collection vegetables from the garden, projects like building shelters that are “typhoon” safe, gathering bamboo from the forest)
11:00 Cooking, lunch and dishes
13:00 Private time – but most of the time we went on excursions, napped, had activities at the temple, did private stuff etc..
17:00 cooking, dinner and dishes
19:00 2 hours of social/private time – and also the time where treatments were done
21:00 Quiet time – most of the time we went to sleep if we wasn’t sleeping already.

2-3 times a week we went to the local onsen (hot spring) at 16:00.
1-3 times a week we went on longer excursions so we skip yoga and start working early and leave early to f.ex. Yufuin, Usuki or Beppu.

Oita was where we go to do our shopping which couldn’t be done in the local area and to get massages when the body is to beaten up. They have amazing shops.

I stayed 45 days and now I miss sleeping on futons, sitting on the floor and having access to squat toilets 😀 funny how fast habits can change or rather how fast my body realized that this was really good for me.

During my stay I learned a lot both about nutrition according to body constitutions, different types of meditation, which types of exercise that suits my body constitution, posture and mental training over to the more basics like chopping bamboo in the forest, caring for a duck, cooking Japanese food, Zen gardening, Wabi sabi (seeing the perfection in the imperfect), healthy lifestyle, Japanese lifestyle and mentality (no wonder they can be tough cookies but also is amazingly helpful and caring), unity in society etc.

All this has made me look at a lot of things in different ways and I’ve already made changes or rather major changes in my life that I are going to stick to. When I get my own place I’ll have futon’s instead of beds if possible, use the practice of sitting on the floor etc. (I saw people in their 90’s squatting with the heals in the ground – guys we so limit our bodies and lives big time by the way we live).

Right now I’m sitting in the common area on the hostel on a chair with cross legged because it strengthen my core, is more healthy and I actually prefer to do this now by reflex 😀

The best part has been seeing the wabi sabi practiced in the home, garden, lifestyle yes a lot of places. Things doesn’t have to be perfect to be beautiful which a lot of Western people has been taught by society.

At the same time I got 45 days where I could relax and I had people that cared about me and I had a network which was so nurturing for my heart and soul to experience. I’ve got in contact with some amazing people and I’ve got some new friends and a network to take with me and I so appreciate that.

I hope I can return sometime or in time maybe work on a retreat like this.

Good things happens

DCIM100GOPROGOPR0994.I’ve experienced so much from I left Darwin and arrived in Sydney and I’ll about it in due time but the internet here is slow so I’d to wait until all my pictures was backed up before beginning to edit with them.

I arrived in Sydney Wednesday and have been busy spending my time with exercising, spending time with Fuzz on Bondi Beach and finding information for my future.

The sun is very strong in the morning so got my first sun burn from the chest and up even with 50+. The bnb I’m living in is so nice and relaxed and I love my butterfly/flower bed.

But! I had to make this post because these last days I’ve had some really amazing experiences:

  • Friday I was on the SUP board again and I didn’t fall into the water at all and there were waves = major progress in body control and strength – woo hoo
  • yesterday I wanted to buy a juice and it was a cash only place so while I went to an ATM a lady paid for my juice.
  • I learned that it’s pretty easy to get a student visa here in Australia, so tomorrow I’m going to Sydney to talk to three schools that teaches academic english. If I’m accepted I’ve a place to stay already.
  • I got my new swim suit today and it fits perfectly
  • today my flat mate told me to use her spices so I don’t have to buy new ones.
  • today I took a day off from boot camp and I’ve been working on my pictures and especially on starting my little side business on redbubbles selling my pictures and designs. Therefore I’m begging for help to spread the word. You don’t have to buy anything but please help me promote my stuff.
  • I’ve found three organic shops in Bronte/Bondi where I live and spend most of my time.

Things are lucking a little brighter so I’m very happy and grateful.

 

 

 

 

Countdown

5 days left in the cold weather and in Norway. I’m so looking forward to my next chapter in my life, especially today since I’ve a lot of problem breathing 🙂
But you know I’ve a choice and therefore I choose to accept I’m so tired today because I lack oxygen.

My lungs hurt when I breath and the skin in my face hurts especially when I’m outside in the freezing weather.
But you know I’ve a choice and therefore I choose to smile because I’m grateful for every breath I take and for being alive.

My gums are bleeding, I’ve dry skin and my nails are crazy from the medicine which helps my lungs and my cold allergy until I’m in warmer weather.
But you know I’ve a choice and therefore I choose to be happy because I know that life gets so much easier being happy.

Facing the biggest fear

Fear isn’t real – or that is what a lot of wise  people says. It’s all in the head – YES – I know! but f*ck it’s real to me and my body reacts when it happens. It’s so embarrassing because I’m a “girl in glove”-fighter, bungee jumping, zip-lining, pole climbing kinda girl.

According to a lot of research #1 fear is speaking in front of a lot of people – yes I do get nervous and sweaty, but I can do it.

So what is my fears – spiders no – find them intriguing but allergic to them so not going to get into a close relationship with those guys 😉

For me it’s flying in helicopters or small airplanes beside that being under water in a “tin can” like a sub-marine. And yes it’s real fear because I hyperventilate, sweat, cries etc. – so annoying. Therefore I’m going to face my fears on my trip to down under, so in Darwin I’m going on a excursion where there is a helicopter in the game. In Sydney I’ll take a tandem skydiving jump from 14.000 feet in a tiny airplane – that should cure it 😀

The best thing is that after I’ve decided to do it, it doesn’t seem so bad and I’ve begun go look forward to it 🙂

So guys facing the fear is the best you can do – set yourself free. Just remember a little controllable fear is good so we don’t go out and jump out from a house believing we can fly. PLUS controllable fear can be a great catalyzer if you learn to use the fear in a good way. I had to learn to do it when I teach and … YES – I’m still pretty nervous before I’ve a class or a speech, but as soon as I get started somehow I manage to turn the fear into something good.

You know there is always something good in everything that happens 🙂

 

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