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New routines – think smart

In the 45 days I stayed at the temple I got a new routines like meditation, yoga, supplements, diet , walking a lot and low-stress lifestyle, which I really need to keep going.

It’s so easy to implement new habits and routines, while living in a protected world like the temple, where everything is based on having these healthy habits. Sticking to them outside in the real world is a challenge.

PracticallyΒ  it’s challenging since I’ve got a steady place to live yet here in Sydney. Therefore every day is filled with a massive amount of new impressions, new people and using a lot of the time on the process of getting settled. Keeping up the new routines will be a lot easier when I get a steady place, where I’ve my stuff around me and easy to access. Until then I just have to do the best I can.

The easiest thing to do is the supplements and the food (here in Bondi there are healthy food stores all over the place). The yoga has become the greatest challenge since I need space and peaceful surroundings, but now I’ve a mat so on dry days I can go to the roof of the hostel or the beach to practice. The meditation has been a challenge, but this morning I went for a walk in the rain and put on my theta wave music – that worked wonders – just like using it in the evening just before bed time.

When I get my “own” space (probably a shared flat or a room) – my morning routine takes about 1 hour beside breakfast and personal stuff. Yes I’ll have to get up early in general, but that is not a problem for me.Β  I need access to a good kitchen, refrigerator, live close to organic stores, hot water washer, not waste too much time on transportation and be able to get early to bed (quiet place). I really hope to live in walking distance to the school maybe 15-20 minutes so I’ve some walking Incorporated in my day. Why do it the hard way if you can do it the smart way ;).

I don’t know about you guys but it’s possible, but it takes effort and smart thinking. Getting as much as possible incorperated in the daily routine so it also frees time to the fun stuff πŸ™‚

I know I’ve to do this because the benefits make a huge difference in my life and I might actually get a life free of any symptoms from my dyspraxia. Again it’s about smart thinking and long term thinking in this case long term isn’t that long since I already experiences a huge difference from before I stayed at the temple. πŸ™‚

Later on I can add more like trigger point and starting studying in the evening beside work but first I’ve to make the foundation for my new life work. It’s like building a house. If the foundation is solid and good the house will last and will be easy to maintain πŸ™‚

 

Let me present: Pierre Black

IMG_6690This unique fellow (the guy in the picture with the hat) has in just a few weeks made a major impact on my life.

I’d now idea about who Pierre Black was before I arrived at the Zen Retreat at the temple near Kozaki. Pierre is a naturapath specialised in diet, CST (cranial sacral therapy) and energy work. This guy is interested in the scientific researched angle. Nutrition wise he uses a mix of ayurvetic and Chinese medicin combined with genetics so he makes a diet that is realistic to follow and which takes you native habits in consideration.
He has a very direct approach which I appreciate because beating around the bushes doesn’t change things.

For the first time my reactions to food has become logic and it has been such a relief. A lot of the problems I’ve, which danish doctors have denied exist or just made mental is now connected to problems with my immune system and digestion and by eating the right diet and supplements it’s already changing.

Beside that for the first time I’ve been taught how to train my body after my body constitution and it makes so much sense and it’s a huge relief to hearing a person telling me what I’ve sensed on many areas but was told was just because I had to get into the habit and ignore the signal.

The first he did was making some adjustments to my diet and putting me on two supplements which strengthens the immune system and digestion.

Then he helped me get more grounded. The life I’ve had since 2011 has been one big crock pot of stressful experiences so when I arrived to the temple I was exhausted and I had a hard time relaxing and getting a good night sleep. I started using theta-wave music and experimenting with different kinds of meditation. Until a racoon took our pet duck, I had the responsibility for taking care of the duck both according to take time petting her and feeding her and that was major quality time for me.

A bit into my stay Pierre also started speeding up the healing of my nerve lanes in the body (got damaged after a flue in 2011) with CST and DIY ayurvetic oil massage with an oil blend added frankincense and st. johns wort. I got so surprised because when he practice his cranio sakral therapy og energy work this huge man gets so gentle and kind that I felt safe putting my head in his hand and I don’t trust easy.

In the “few” weeks I was on the temple it made a huge difference f.ex. I’ve no more heat flashes going on, I feel more grounded. Beside that I know a lot now and I can handle a lot on my own before I need help and that is so amazing. Pierre has given me new hope that I can get a really good life.

I can highly recommend Pierre Black as a practitioner.

Since I lived at the temple for 45 days I also got to know Pierre in private and as a person I’ve experienced him as direct but also very kind, caring and ready to help people. While I was at the temple I’d a rock to lean on and that was a huge gift to just being able to let go of the usual life for 45 days and being able to concentrate on getting the foundation for my life started in a good way.

Thank you for all your help.

Day 3 in Tokyo

Woke up early and got yoga etc. done and ready go leave at 9 am. I love sleeping in my cell and staying here at the hotel because it’s like a vacuum. I’ve no idea of what is going on outside and they have this amazing calming Japanese music playing very softly and silently in the main areas. It doesn’t matter what is going on outside.

My legs were still a bit weird from too much walking yesterday but no mercy here. I’m in Tokyo so my dyspraxia just has to obey me today πŸ˜€ Therefore I decided to go to the Imperial castle, Shibuya area and then the Ueno area.

The emperor was home so most of the park was closed but what I saw was so beautiful and it was only 10 minutes walk from the hotel. To save my legs I took the subway to Shibuya and I must admit I had no idea of what waited me. I had seen pictures but the is the most organized mayhem I’ve ever experienced. So many shops, cafes and you name it they probably got it. I found a place called Fresh burgers where I got a naked avocado burger, lemon water and salad. Perfect meal.

I went to see the park in the area and there was a Latin Festival – I felt so lucky and I must admit I love the music. There was a fair too with lots of food, clothes, drinks etc. to look at while listening to latin music. I must admit I felt like dancing πŸ˜€

Since I needed to wash my clothes today I had to be back at the hotel about 17ish I had to skip Ueno, so I left and looked at the park just behind but there was so crowded with japanese having a well deserved day off.

Therefore I began to walk home to find a convenient store to buy dinner but on the way I got a bit distracted by a gigantic shrine. I had to look into that and then I went back to the hotel after shopping food.

Jiho the monk on the temple would be happy to see my meal. Shashimi, shisu leaves, water melon and salad. It was awesome and I could eat it while waiting on my clothes to get washed.

One minus about living at a capsule hotel I experienced today – I needed something from my luggage that I had no chance of foresee. Since my luggage is locked up at the reception so I only have the most important stuff in my cell locker I had to bother the staff to get my luggage, then get it up to my floor and repack my stuff and then down again to deliver it once again. But in all it works very well. Every day at 17 when I can return to the hotel everything is clean and new. There is waiting a new set of clothes for me etc. I love it πŸ™‚

Today my adventure begins

Yesterday I got a good lesson from my body – called listen to yourself.

I started this road trip to honour my parents and to get to know my father better but it seems like this also becomes the road trip where I get to know me better πŸ˜‰

When I’ve a goal I usually follow it up and work hard but this is not about the goal, it’s about the trip and enjoying myself. I must admit that is a new thing for me in this way so I’m learning valuable lessons.

On my first day I drove the whole day and I was tired when I arrived but that was planned. Therefore the second day I went to Niagara Falls and just took it easy (it’s about 30 minutes from Buffalo where I stayed). Then my plan was to go to Oklahoma city in long “6 hours ride a day” stretches on the interstate because after that my fathers trip really takes off.

Yesterday I just realised that since my cold allergy is of I’ve to take care of myself (the plane ride was freezing and New York wasn’t better). My father took this trip in his way and on his circumstances and I’m not him. I just wanted to make this trip precisely as his but this morning in the bath I began to think what my parents would have wanted … They both would have wanted me to have a trip I enjoy and where I do what is right for me and take care of myself and my needs. Therefore today I’ll go and take highway 40 instead of the interstate and take a “slower” ride on my terms. Even though I made stops on every rest area yesterday driving on the interstate is tiring. That’s why I’m start my own adventure today instead of hunting a shadow – I’ll duplicate my fathers trip and make it my own.

Great Barrier Reef – Magic

Kirri and me after snorkling smallI had 4 amazing days out on Great Barrier Reef snorkeling in the beginning of April and I had a blast. The animal and coral life is so amazing. I saw turtles, sharks (both sleeping and awake), sea cucumbers, starfish in amazing colours, baby squids, baby sting ray, jellyfish, fish in all colours and sizes and I found Nemo πŸ™‚ – Even though the corals are bleached by the increasing acidicness in the ocean they’re still amazing. I took so many pictures under water and some are good but they’ll never be able to show the real life experience. I chose to take 4 days on the boat and there was always something new to experience on every snorkel even if I had two snorkels in the same reef. The company Reef Encounter has been awarded by TripAdvisor and I must admit it’s deserved.

  • All the crew was friendly, outgoing, helpful and very skilled.
  • The boat was perfect for the “mission”.
  • The Scottish cook made amazing food and there was more than enough – loved his accent by the way. Actually with my diet this is one of the few places where I’ve got amazing food and enough food for every meal.
  • Beside that the service level was amazing in the water. People that couldn’t swim was taken out by one of the crew members with a life saver and life jacket. Everybody was offered either a stinger suit or wet suit.

I chose to up-grade to top-deck because I then would have a personal assistant and since my dyspraxia makes my legs pretty quirky when I’ve been weightless in the water and because of my food allergies/intolerances. For me it’s so important that my safety is in top when having 4 days like this and then I can’t compromise with the food. My assistant was Kiri and she was so amazing and I miss her because I felt so comfortable with her and we had so much fun. She was really good at reading my signals and helping me with respect and so I still had my independence. Even more important but rare I felt we’re at the same level mentally speaking. At the same time I loved having Kiri to show me all the amazing stuff going on at the different location. Without her I hadn’t got the same experience. I must admit, I enjoyed getting the royal treatment.

I loved the security level at the boat like we were all counted 3 times a day where a crew member came around and we had to sign a sheet. Before going out in the water we’d to register and when we got back we had to sign it. One of the diving instructors was on watch and made sure all snorkelers was safe. The first day on the way out to the boat we’re thought the signs for I’m ok, I need a pick-up and I’m in trouble. Later I learned the sign for turtle, sting ray etc. So much fun πŸ˜€

You can swim in your swimsuit but depending on the season it’s wise to cover up some how because of stingers. We didn’t have any problem though. The boat have wet suits you can use in the water and if you’re not confident in the water it helps you float too.

The best thing though was the amazing people I met and the friends I got on the trip. I’ll carry you guys in my heart as a precious memory. And thank you to you guys that gave me a hand when needed. Love you guys.

Reefs we visited: Norman, Hasting and Coral Reef

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Reflection from a time-out

at last on the ghan

Traveling alone is amazing but it has also given me a huge gift of time to think and that is both good and bad πŸ˜‰ I’ve time to reflect over the life I’m putting behind me and the future. What did I do right and what areas I can approve in. What do I want to focus on in life short term and long term etc.

Beside that traveling alone makes it a lot easier to get in contact with locals and other tourists traveling alone therefore I’ve got some really amazing experiences.

When I arrived in Sydney the 9th of March I was mentally tired from the last 5 years but kept focusing on what I want, though I didn’t have the energy to go into 100% boot camp. I then got a maui massage that changed a lot for me because since that I’ve had no nerve tics from the dyspraxia and I’ve a good sleep every night now except two nights which is a major improvement. Therefore I’ve used a lot of time sleeping and recovering with good food and training. The trip to Great Barrier Reef was epic but physically challenging in the good way so I’ve used the last week on recovering.

Yesterday morning I woke up and something felt different. I chose run right away and I met 2 of my favorite lifeguards who saw me last year and had a chat – and one of them commented on how good I’m looking now and that made me realise I’m on the right track. Combined with listening to Mateuzs’ motivational speeches I felt like a fog lifted and I got several piece in my life puzzle to fall into place.

It’s like I’ve taken a leap of faith and my life puzzle has been taken apart and I need to put it all together in a new way. Just to be clear I love the process πŸ˜ƒΒ and I began to think about life and survival. It’s all about strength but not “how hard you can hit” – Β it’s more “how hard a blow you can take” and get up again.

People that know me IRL have heard my mantras like:

  • I’m not finished when I’m tired, I’m finished when I’m done
  • You always have a choice
  • When life serves you lemon make lemonade and when they get too big move away from the power plant.
  • You might not be able to change the circumstances but you can choose how to react
  • If you hate Monday you’re in the wrong job
  • What you send out you get back (law of attraction)
  • It’s not about how you fall or how many times you fall – it’s about how you get up again
  • It’s better to take a chance than regretting not taking the chance
  • It’s never to late

This is my attitude 99% of the time and some days I believe that what brought me to this attitude beside kick-boxing is being borned with motor sensoric dyspraxia and a good portion of determination.

Through my life I’ve met so many people that already in early age has surrendered and given up on life and is just fighting to survive the day. They hate Monday and have count downs to the next weekend because they’ve a job they hate or just not thrive in. They are so focused on all that can go wrong and choosing to let fear control their life and using a lot of excuses for why not making the changes that is needed to turn life around. Often they’ve never told anybody about it just assumed that nobody wants to listen or help.

I know it’s hard because the last five years my life has been really hard and it has been like driving a car on a really dark road where I only could see what the light from the car made visible. So I just had to move forward in hope that I would get out of the darkness again. Now I’m getting my reward for moving forward every day step by step and have a time where I do stuff from my 101 things to do when you survive – I’m out in the daylight again and loving it.

In the end guys it’s all about your attitude and you’re the only one who can change your own lives and change comes from doing things different or do it a new way.

This is why I love Bondi

From the first minute or actually before I ever arrived I’ve had some weird connection to Bondi Beach and last year when I went their the first time I felt so at home and fell in love with the place. As I got to know the area I’ve expanded it to the area from Bronte and the whole costal walk to Bondi.

Today the weather was amazing so I got up early to take a SUP lesson with Dean and I made a photo rapportage to show why I love this place.

Already before the sun is up there is local people on the beach training, surfing and getting a morning bath. Some mornings there are photo shoots, preparations to parties, couples lying together and waking up etc. About 9-10 in the weekends or holidays the families and tourist arrives, and I just love watching the families because I see so much joy. Beside that every time I’m on the beach I see new things and I get a calmness and joy especially if I can get on the water.

The water is my meditation – I’m in the now and I get a time-out from life and I love it – Some days my dyspraxia in the legs are controllable and I stay on the board. Other days like today I had to have help to get to shore and I fell into the water 4 times – but in the end it’s not how many times I fall – it’s how many time I get up again that counts πŸ˜‰

 

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