At last I’ve found a school that have English courses on my level. The last weeks I’ve used a lot of time on traveling around in Sydney and being on the internet/phone trying to find a school were I can enroll.
Most of them declined because they believed they couldn’t teach me anything – but …. – I’ve an IELTS written on 6.5 and to get into a post graduate/master study I’ll need 7.0 as a minimum. To get my teachers degree assessed I need to apply an IELTS on 7+ on writing. To get max point for visa and I need that I need 8.0.
It has been so frustrating because I need a good school to improve my English.
Next challenge: The school I’ve found (YEAH) wants me to start at the proficiency level in Cambridge English and then take the IELTS. When I look at the advanced material I’m already getting the empty brain look and the thought of having to do severe studies on my trip though USA, Hawaii and Japan was definitely not in my program.
This morning I was ready to call the school to push for starting on advanced level but fortunately in the shower after my morning session with Dean, I remembered the advice I got from the monks at Bondi Pavillion – “you need to have much more courage” – I had to chew on that one for half an hour and then changed my plans.
I realised that I was putting myself down according to my level of written English and grammar. Therefore I’ll do what the school recommended – I enroll on proficiency level now and when I arrive on the first day we let the placement test do the talking. Even though it was not in my plans to study the next months I’ll go to the book store in the Junction to see if they have good grammar books that can explain it in a way that I can understand + I’ll see if I can buy the books for the advanced class. I’ve some long flights, transfers in airports etc. in the next months so might as well give it a go and toughen up.
The point is that I like many others are so good at putting myself down and not listening to others and having been brought up in a country where “the laws of Jante” is extreme, I need to get out of that thought pattern – So if you are doing the same please join me and f*ck Jante and go for it. (sorry for my language)